Reaching New Heights...and embarassment

ok, so i've always been afraid of heights. it's not that extreme, but i jst try to avoid being places where i am in danger of falling off anything or really anything that's more than 5 feet off the ground. I've never flipped out the way i did today.

so i was at play practice and i knew what was coming, my first day on the set. I have to twirl baton on a 15+ foot high platform, and my heart is racing jst thinking about it. So during break, i decided to go up by myself and jst get the feel of it. well while i was up there, my friend Hunter decided to shake the riser which set me off balance, and aparently my emotions too. I didnt fall off, but i did break down right there in the middle of the set and start bawling and i could not stop!!! I felt like a complete idiot. Eventually i composed myself (after crying into isaacs shoulder for a few seconds) and hunter gave me a hug. Now weer all good but i still hat that stupid platform.......